I can honestly say that my excitement and anticipation is building by the hour. My anticipation is skipping over the 33+ hours on the road with the cats and going right to North Carolina with my best friend. I can't help it, this Mommie needs some GIRL TIME!!!!! I feel very guilty about leaving my daughter but I know the Hus will take great care of her. Unfortunately the pregnancy hormones are not helping my feelings of guilt and sadness but what can I do, drinking and sedatives are not options.
I have been taking some pre-natal yoga classes but I have started doing meditation because I think I can actually feel my blood pressure rising. My current stressors are: no medical insurance, paying cash for doctor and hospital, living with my Mother and half of my siblings, wondering where we will move to and when, hoping it is to the house I grew up in, being away from my daughter and husband, bills, and oh yeah I'm having a BABY IN TWO MONTHS!!!! Two months, I can not believe how quickly time has gone by. Hopefully tonight's meditation session will be more successful than last nights.
I started today with a delicious glucose test. So tasty. If you have never had a glucose test, I will be a bit more obvious, I was sarcastic about the deliciousness and tastiness. While I waited the one hour before they could draw my blood, I did start knitting a gift for a special friend and I am so glad I purchased enough yarn to make two of these gifts. I want one of my own. Pictures to follow when the intended person receives the gift.
When I made my appointment I looked for the soonest available and the earliest in the day since I had to fast. What I didn't do, is pay attention to the location and when I arrived I had a vague sense of deja vu. As I began to walk down the hallway I realized that the last time I had been in that particular building was when I had taken my dad to an appointment there. I remember walking down the hallway with him and he said, "Mary, these are my ladies here and just because I flirt with them does not mean I don't love your mother." He was walking with walker, had no hair, big ugly glasses and was so thin a small breeze would blow him over. It probably took us an hour just to walk the hallway to his ladies because he refused to use a wheelchair. Let me tell you, they were so excited to see him. I love my Daddy and I miss him everyday. So as my starving, hormonal pregnant self walked that hallway of memories again, I could barely keep it together. I guess God needed to remind me that even though my dad isn't here physically, he is still there and watching over me. Yes, I am sobbing as I write this. Everyday life hands us obstacles and reminders what we do with them is what gets us through each day. After reflecting on my hallway walk, I know that despite my list of stressors I am never alone, at least I have God and my Daddy watching over me.
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